Seeds for a happy planet

Although I didn’t see a flock of hawks in the journey as others did, I saw an image of a circle of women, holding an energetic tissue between them; coming out of their vaginas; all floating freely in the air. In the morning circle I ended my invitation with saying: I cannot be a flock of hawks on my own.

As this gathering was aimed at looking at the co-creation with the subtle realms there were a lot of participants who had a lot of experience and competence in communicating with and knowing about these energies. It made again clear to me how much of an earth and nature person I am.

Through hearing many stories I came to understand better that the metaphorical flock of hawks not only included us humans, but also energies from other dimensions. I also understood way deeper that the co-evolution of all dimensions goes in every direction in this web of life; it is not by any means a two-way thing. This means also that as a group of human beings we cannot be a flock of birds, we need to connect, to co-create with the subtle beings/layers/energies.

Through Ruth came these words: We are holding you, as you are holding us. (more would come later in another fascinating systemic constellation – to be posted later!)

There was another energy present in the room when we gathered on Sunday morning. Many women who hadn’t slept the night before, now reported to have slept well. Sleeping is hardly ever a problem for me. I sleep everywhere and mostly long and well; but the previous day had gone through my mind; both in that in between state between awake and sleep; and again in the morning.

In that pondering I had understood something more of what we had called somewhere in a previous gathering or conference call; to be in love with the future. It is also part of the matrix and map that we are developing to understand steps and phases in becoming a Circle of Creation – a group that can generate emergent and wise action – but I did not understand it enough to be able to write about it coherently. Now, something became a little clearer to me.

Thinking back at the guided journey we did the day before, I became more interested in the take off point, that point that we normally link with fear, where we leave behind the known ways of doing. Being in love with the future means that your fear to be at that point has transformed into joyful anticipation of what might come next. For myself, it is a feeling like being in love. An anticipation of only good, exiting and inspiring things to happen; like a childlike wonder when you are given a lot of presents. I love that feeling and that space on the edge so much. Probably because it feels so alive! All your cells, all of your emotions, all of your brain are engaged. Can it be any better? Not for me.

This new insight I shared early in the circle that morning. It was an invitation to all to be with me on this edge where we could discover more of what a collective could be together. There were many voices in that morning circle that were calling us forth. S. spoke the following:

May you dance on the edge of discovery
and find exhilaration in the not-knowing.
Now that is fully living.
How will I choose to fully live?

I loved the words of (another) S. that followed: “Eat it up! Chew it up!” – as the not-knowing needs to be digested and taken in, and not be avoided. It takes a decision, a commitment to do that.

A perfect poem followed, read by Nina and written by Lalla, who lived in Kashmir in the 14th century:


I didn’t trust it for a moment,
the wine of my own poetry,
but I drank it anyway.

It gave me the daring to take hold
of the darkness and tear it down
and cut it into little pieces.

Being in love with the future means a conscious decision to let it happen.

I am not so exited after this second day as I was yesterday. I had expected with this group to go quicker to the point of not-knowing, to that edge that always seem to be in a different place; a next place. Even when we have been there a hundred times it is always totally new, not like anything that I or we have experienced before.

The women in this gathering have tons of experience, high levels of (spiritual) training and education – this is a real powerful women’s circle! Great and important things were shared; some people made tons of notes. But what did we learn about our question, about co-creating with the subtle?
Did we move the edge of collective consciousness?
Did we speak from this place of not-knowing, from source?

Many of these women are highly trained in communicating with al kinds of subtle beings, energies and entities; but I came to understand that communication with these energies is different than co-creating – at least how I understand it so far. We all have our preferred communication channel, as we have our different learning styles and different kinds of memory. Some here see lights, colors or nature spirits, others understand what ET’s are and bring to us; others hear words; still others feel and know inside. Also in these subtle realms we each have our preferred way of noticing and remembering, just like in the manifest, three-dimensional world.

There is one thing that really struck me today: the strength or power that exists in honoring (ourselves, or the Earth, or the feminine or anything). It is a total different kind of power than the struggle or the fight that we normally link with the word power. Honoring is strong in itself, because it is part of the sacred. Honoring is an inner movement that says something about the wholeness of life itself. The sacred, the honoring, is all part of a bigger, cosmic, divine wave –
a longer wave –
a bigger wave –
a deeper tide –
than the turbulence, chaos, wars etc. that we see on the surface level.

The strength does not come from being strong, but from being coherent; from being aligned. One of us would speak about compassion and being invisible. She meant with this: not causing any friction; not attracting attention from darker energies. She said the strength of compassion was highly underrated. It transcends all time and space, and is a complete emptiness; it is humility.

Connecting these two experiences – my little frustration and my insight about honoring – makes me now wonder: maybe I was not honoring (enough) the contributions of each woman in this day? Maybe I was not totally empty, had still some kind of expectations?

As I add this last paragraph later, I know now, that there were many gems in what happened and I look back at a rich experience. And I understand that the being that is Women Moving the Edge needed the input from these fabulous women, who contributed so much to my and our understanding of what co-creating with the subtle really means! (more is to come in next blog posts) We had understood before that the gatherings add so much of the needed diversity to the core of Women Moving the Edge. Imagine that we would go one with always the same group, we would miss so much valuable input.

There was one transmission/message of Saturday morning that would give us a metaphor that came back again and again. It was something that S. had heard during the first night; the title was New Way Hawks.

You all have been gifted with hawk vision. You see the world of the future and how is must be shaped. Hawks view the world from above. They swoop down to take what they need – no more, no less – watch then and lessons will reveal themselves. Gratefully and powerfully they ride with the wind – not much effort – known for their grace.

Grace never stops giving – grace must be acknowledged for it will give you strength in the journey.

Understand.

Walk in the beauty of each other’s kindness. Support each other’s vision for the world; for in each of you is one part of the whole.

Think globally.

Think collectively.

At a certain point we did an exercise, a journey into our imagination and deeper sensing under the guidance of one of us and with support of the drum. Our intention was to look at what was ‘beyond the edge’. It was fascinating to hear that in sharing what we had ‘seen’ some elements were reported by more than one of us. One of them was this flock of hawks, taking off from the edge and soaring freely in the air. Another element were domes; and there were more, but I was too much focused on drawing what I had seen in my mind’s eye; so I didn’t take notes of the other elements.

I remember from my experience also the fluid movement – like the birds – that different people spoke about; and the ease of moving from being on the edge to the next thing – like a lifting up, without any physical movement required. I don’t recall that any of us reported fear about that point of transition.

“It is that simple, stepping through the door.”

“It has to be done here and now.”

As you maybe can see in the picture of my drawing, I didn’t see hawks, but I saw women, all sitting cross-legged. They were not really sitting, as they all were kind of floating in the air. From their wombs came a piece of cloth, white, that they kind of held in-between them; again with no physical effort, more as an awareness. First this cloth was hanging loosely, but over time it stretched itself. In the end it looked more like a trampoline. I don’t remember much else from my ‘seeing’.

On the drawing I find now a few words, concepts and sentences that I truly don’t remember where they came from. My own wandering thoughts? Things other women were mentioning in our debrief from this exercise. But linking it back to the idea proposed in the video about the ‘outer vibrational womb’ they all make a lot of sense though.

“It is a natural organism.” – that’s exactly how it felt in the ‘seeing’; and that is also how it feels when it actually happens in a group; when there is a collective field that becomes tangible.

“Collective on the causal level” – I come to understand more and more that what we do in these kind of gatherings on the subtle level is maybe more important than all the words that we share. It as like the effect of systemic constellations that not only works for the one person present, but can have an effect on the whole system. In the future I think I will pay more attention to this. It also relates with what recent physics are inquiring into these days.

Another message that came through one of our voices:

Create your own pod and inspire.
Inspire each pod member to create their own pod.
You know what I mean, don’t you?

Exhibit kindness al around you and kindness will spread.

Lift your voices not in conflict but rather speaking of integrity.
Live well and you will all be an example for the future.

Understand?

Time is now, do not delay;
for the world system is in trouble.

If everyone does their part, a new system will emerge.
A new money system will emerge – not just one, but many.

Offer what you have, take only what you need.

Understand?

Another piece was transmitted:

Be touched by the heart of humanity,

because it is the womb of the earth.

For now is the time needing the feminine energy to…

Again; it stopped.



A quote came forward:

Jesus said; “If you bring forth, what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.” The Gospel of Thomas

I don’t remember how somebody came to name the Unwounded Feminine; a concept that came to the women participating  in the Egypt journey. The ‘wounding’ triggered some conversation; if it was possible at all if we could get to a point where we would be without them…

Then this quote came:

“Spiritual warriors are courageous enough to taste suffering and relate to their fear… suffering is not seen as a failure or a punishment. It’s a purification.” Sogyal Rinpoche

Can we be the Unwounded Feminine? We are it already in some way! And we can recognize and support it when we see it in other – and mostly younger – people. The Unwounded has to say “Stop it”! Not only to conflict, war and the like, but stop to think and act as if we are only human. No, we are human and spiritual at the same time! The feminine knows that deep inside. And as difficult as it may seem to connect and live that connection in the same moment, we will do it; even if we don’t know how (yet).

The word ‘wounds’ brings up two options: one the reactive – the path of karma; and the other a response, which can be from light to light; in and from the heart. Crucial is the circle here, because it is only the collective heart who can hold the wounds and the related pain and suffering.

Suddenly it was time for dinner – without sugar, without gluten, without diary, without wheat and so good! – and our circle room became a dining room in no time. We closed the evening in the Peace Chamber; a hand-made round building of straw bale and cob built on Ruth’s land. A kind of building that my body loves and recognizes so deeply. Immediately I felt at home there. Again we used sound and voice, this time to express joy and gratitude for the reciprocity with all the subtle beings so present all the time.

I noticed quite clearly that the energy in my body was shifting. The tension and vulnerability I had been feeling these last few days in my sacrum was now gone. My eyes closed naturally. It felt that for the first time in my life my sacrum and lower abdomen was fully relaxed – or maybe for the first time was at ease with how it was. Strange to say it in this way, but here was a kind of home coming in that area for me.

I noticed my attention going back to the outer womb we can create in our midst and what is the womb’s function other than to receive the fertilized egg, and be pregnant of the new? The conception needs to happen somewhere – consciously.

It is the spark of evolution, received in het conscious and collective womb of attention and intention that will birth together the new paradigm; in structures and processes.

And I knew deep inside me: All what you until now see as the new paradigm, are just experiments and prototypes, not the real new. It will be way beyond what you imagine now, but you can be pregnant without knowing how it will look like. Don’t be afraid and move on!

A certain moment – this was our first full day together – somebody started some music and sound (toning), soon followed by others joining in. I listened and couldn’t join in, because I lacked a specific intention to do that. Sound and toning was very present in this gathering, which is no surprise as Ruth, the caller of this gathering, has held a Sound School for many years, and many of its participants were now here. Later I would learn from the systemic constellation that Sound is a way of how the Light gets in.

It was clear that this collective sounding had triggered a lot in others. One was a transmission that had a lot of power for us; it was shared three times in the circle:

We, the united people of the Spirit world,

sit around you, above and below you

in loving support for all you are – and all that you will be.

The world calls you forth to represent

all these who are not yet evolved

and ready to stand for the new way in the new way in the new world.

Be save in your journey

as we are present to protect you and your dreams.

Speak your dream for the world,

because the world needs to know.

We are at the apex of the future emerging.

We can either…

And there it stopped.

Was this for us to choose?

Either…. Or ….?

But what if we go beyond the duality here? Then it is not about choosing between options, then it is about ‘the cloud of probability’ (from quantum science) and it is about creating! Then it can be about light, love and community all the time!

This was the most amazing start of a Women Moving the Edge gathering! The practice of speaking from a centered place, from a place where no or hardly any personality is involved was there right from the start. I noticed the years and years of spiritual practice that were present in the circle – from many lifetimes even – and they formed a strong band around our circle, a strong container for the new to emerge.

Many forms of knowing were shared: stories from visiting other cultures, dreams from long time ago, sound and toning expressing the unspeakable, drawings and colors, a song, a channeling etc. etc. It was a deep and rich mix with lots of synchronicities. And also lots of points not understood.

Not fully.

Not yet.

We have two big groups present here, like two tribes almost: six women who went together on a trip to Egypt one and a half year ago, then some local women who are/were participants in some of Ruth’s gatherings; then some other like me, with no connection to either of these groups. All bring in a lot of skills of relating with the subtle realms, although in many different forms and expressions; as if we need to learn from each other.

The circle was binding together easily and quickly after we had jointly called in the four directions and many other beings and energies from many dimensions. This calling in of the subtle worlds, so explicitly, is new to our Women Moving the Edge work; but it seemed to naturally flow from the topic of our question. If we want to co-create together with the subtle, the least is to invite them in, no?

As this calling in is traditionally named as invocation, I had been wondering if there is a difference between inviting and invoking. Inviting seems to be from the heart, a warm and friendly atmosphere. Invoking seems to imply a stronger connection, almost like a demand, but also an offering of presence of ourselves, not only from the heart, but from an aligned space including the soul. I don’t know if this is ‘right’, but that is what it seems to me.

Joy was present – here and ‘over there’.

“Can one know joy?” – a question to ponder over a lifetime.

And the answer found: “I do know joy a lot!”

Gratefulness was present too.

Recently I had seen a video fragment with a native elder from a small island west of Canada. He spoke about installing an outer womb in the circle – a creative act to be done by women in order to bring about the new world order. I spoke this into the circle, and was wondering what it really meant for us now.

Here are his words regarding this piece: “There is a sacred vibrational field inside a woman that we have forgotten to honor; that is the place of all the things born… that nothing new can be birth without women. What women have done before time began, was taking that sacred vibration and move it outside in ceremonial space to create the womb on the outside vibrationally; so that something new can be birthed in this world. And we have forgotten that point. And it’s really, really important now. We, as men, we have to be the new spiritual warriors, the ones that protect the sacred space of the women so that they can do their work.  If we are looking for change in this world – from a physical and spiritual standpoint – it will never happen until we restore that place, until we help women do that… nothing new will be created. If we don’t do it, we as a human species, I believe, are done for.”

My wandering thoughts brought me to what Cari said yesterday: “What if we all had conscious conceptions?” She was referring to real conceptions of real baby’s – I think -, but what if this is also true for every aspect of the new of way of being for humans and the Earth? What if every organization and project starts from a conscious conception? What if we hold together a collective womb, an empty space full of potential, where the seed of evolution is allowed to enter and to seed the next?

One woman in the circle spoke that ‘the ring pass not’ (some astrological explanation could explain where this came from, but that is really not my cup of tea) between the mundane and the subtle is changing now, and that it becomes a place of interpenetration – where the different dimensions touch each other as the weft and warp in a piece of cloth. She explained that each of these new touching points is a new center from where life and evolution can now unfold. Another way of understanding the expansion I mentioned before, in my previous blog post.

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