Afternoon…
Monday, March 5th, 2007again by Judy!
This afternoon was moving in and out of confusion and chaos. I guess this is part of the process. I felt we were really all coming from different places. I could not discern a voice from the Middle. I think we were not at all tuned into any collective knowing. We were working with Action Learning, which is probably a very good tool, but not working well in this context. We did not seem to converge on a question or have group buy-in to the process. So we seemed to stop and start and restart.
All the while most present for me were the questions:
What is our Circle Task?
What if we are doing this FOR the world?
Many seemed to feel the question of how we were to make a difference in the world was too big. Or that it was presumptuous to think we could really be much more than a ripple in a stream. I was yearning to move into a deeper inquiry, a deeper space, into communion with a question, almost any question. I know that from Moving the Edge last March I had worked through some of my uncertainty and fear with this process. And yet it is still an edge. After once touching into speaking from the Middle, I would forever want to return there, to that incredible and liberating power of knowing. To that little worn groove in consciousness, that is now a bit more familiar. The possibilities are so vast. The opportunity to shift consciousness even in a small way is so attractive energetically. It is as if consciousness is calling, magnetizing me and us to answer, to listen, to sense into, to be present, to co-sense, and to co-presence. Once knowing this experience it becomes a capacity that must be utilized, that must be put into service. The sense of urgency is compelling.
And then near the end of this long afternoon, Ria spoke as consciousness spoke through her. I sat in silent support, holding the space, honoring her as the vessel. Lisa captured her words; I was in stillness and awe of the clarity and presence of what emerged. I defer here to Lisa’s rendering. It was a huge shift for us. We all knew it.
And then we moved easily and gently into dinner and a relaxing evening of conversation. We glowed around the fire and admired the incredible pictures captured on Helen’s camera – colorful renderings of our faces, our hands, our time, and the beautiful setting that is the Heerlijckyt.
A Blessed day!
